Twisting That Twisted Thing

That Twisted Heart - Part 1

Me: 

You! 

I care about you..

I trust you..

I need you..

I miss you..

I like you..

I want you ..

I'm jealous! 

I'm so afraid to lose you..

Err, I think I love you?

You: 

Babe...? Are you okay? You didn't say a thing since just now?

Me: 

Owh....yeah.. Yeah, Am cool...

You: 

So.. As I was saying... I like this one girl.....

Me: 

Yeah..yeahh..continue..

p/s: Craving for who?YOU? Booo~

Throwback: Full What??? Full Marathon!!!

There's saying, "When your legs can't run anymore, run with your heart❤️" This phrase gives no impact to me until I run my first Full Marathon last year. I remembered registering for my FM as early as January last year with NO idea what was the plan for this ultimate plan.

YUP, tho this entry considered 'expired entry' so called but it will always and forever be my greatest life experience. Moreover, that was my inaugural Full Marathon but second time running for Penang Bridge International Marathon. In 2013, I did my first half marathon in the same event. Anyways, never in my entire life to imagine myself running full marathon. My 2014 resolution & mission have accomplished! Alhamdulillah. 

The route was soooooooo boring and mental I tell you, I did too many 'self-talk.' Worst moment was while I've done about 25KM ++, there was where my body aching, I couldn't feel my leg. I didn't see the 'landmark' (that cable bridge). Too many people walking instead of running. As I mentioned earlier, the route was sooo boring! Pfffttt~ All added up and equals to over-thinking and mind-negativity. As I've done my 30KM ++, it was already daylight and there you can see thousands of runners. Imagine Uruk Hai in LOTR, that was how the scene was..Seriously...The moment I saw the signage, '400M'... I said to myself... 'They lie! Lie to me! They said  400M more!! How come I feel soooo far!! Still sooo far from the finish line!Warghhh!' Cannot tahan edy, I speed up at my last few hundreds meters to finishing line using my last energy, adrenaline, water tank, emotions, strength, name it!

Despite all of these....Lo! I've done my 42 KM in 6 hours 15 minutes. Alhamdulillah!!! 

Another best thing was my Master Sifu has added me in their 'Marathoners Group.' Hahahaa... simple event yet sooooo meaningful to me! They've even celebrated my FM achievement by buy me for dinner in 'Tony Romas,' it's somewhat their ritual as and when they have new Marathoners in the group. Hahaha... :P

My next running mission is to run 42 KM for SCKLM! In sya allah! Kasi kaki baik dulu!!

This was in R&R...I can't remember which one :P The one with light-blue shirt is my MASTER SIFU!! :)

Runners! :)

Re-quote from my Master Sifu Ajiman, "Full Marathon Virgin... no more... " ^_^

This is my Sifu Hezany! 

Celebrating the new FM runners!

These are for them!

This is from them :)

p/s: Running keeps me sane, keeps me happy, keeps me be me! I love you, Running.. hahahaha...

Tapi, Selalunya...

Kadang-kadang berjaya pujuk diri
Kadang-kadang rasa okay hati ni

Kadang-kadang betul rasa tak kisah
Kadang-kadang peduli apa dengan resah

Kadang-kadang serious jiwa tak terganggu
Kadang-kadang memang sanggup tunggu 

Kadang-kadang biarlah ada sempadan
Kadang-kadang mengaku tak rasa bosan

Kadang-kadang tak rasa langsung cemburu
Kadang-kadang buat ape nak celaru

Kadang-kadang lebih baik pasrah
Kadang-kadang tak mengaku dah parah

Tapi, selalunya...
'Kadang-kadang' ni tak pernah nak selalu...
Sebab selalunya, 'kadang-kadang' ni memang kadang-kadang je....

pfft~

Gambar bukan hak milik sendiri, dari Google Image

p/s: Overthinking, aye? Kadang-kadang, aku pon naik heran la dengan 'kekadangan' aku ni.. Huh!

Oh My Ankle!

Memang dulu, kini dan selamanya...Aku dan kaki memang sentiasa dilanda kecederaan.. Ligamen koyak, terseliuh, bengkak, plantar faciitis, etc  -_- 

In fact, ligamen buku lali aku dulu koyak for the first time when I was 8 years old gara-gara naik beskal macam pelesit time turun bukit.. Cari penyakit namanye.... Tettt~

Anyways, I've sprained my ankle last Sunday. Sudahlah tergolek, kaki terlipat ke belakang, terseliuh... Adoi..

Ikutkan hati nak jugak join the MHWH Run this coming Saturday... Haihhh.. Tapi...aku akuilah yang kaki ni tak sihat dan jangan nak berlagak hero. Kalau keadaan jadi lagi parah, baru nak menyesal buat ape kan.. Yelah, ikut hati, mati...So.. hati panas sikit la dari tadi deme-deme ni dok bersembang on meeting point, dalam wassep sifu-sifu semangat update itu ini...  Grrrrr~ 

Hopefully by 11th April 2015, my ankle is better and I can proceed with my Shape Run! Yeehaaa! Tengah cuba mempositifkan diri ni! Dalam hati siapa yang tahu. With heavy heart, I pass my running bib to my colleague. Kesian jugak kat mamat tu, kena run bib perempuan :P Hopefully he would wear skirt tomorrow.. :P Miaaaahahahaha.. 

Iyalah kaki, ko rest la kaki.......

p/s: Aku teringat Umi aku penah tegur ada satu hari tu mase kaki aku sihat.. Dia tegur lembutttt je, "Awak ni nak pakai kaki untuk berlari je ke, takde ke rase nak simpan untuk pakai pegi Mekah nanti...." 

Dushhh~ *ouch*

That Twisted Conversation

Aku: Ape masalah ko ni asyik buat masalah?!

Ko: Masalahnya ko la yang punya masalah..

Aku: Ape masalah aku?

Ko: Ko rase ko jaga aku tak?

Aku: *Diam*

Ko: Ko janji bulan lepas, sekarang dah terlebih 2000 tau. Dah masuk 10 tahun aku dengan ko. Semua kawan-kawan ko aku kenal. Aku kenal sangat la ko ni...

Aku: Fine, nak membebel dengan aku. 

Ko: Aku tak pernah tak bersama ko. Aku setia dengan ko. Tapi ko suka take me for granted.

Aku: Jangan nak mengungkit sangat!

Ko: Memang aku mengungkit. Ko bgtau aku sape di sisi ko bila ko sedih sepanjang jalan dari ofis ke rumah? Sape teman ko kat stesen minyak time ko tak boleh drive sebab mata kabur tengah menangis? Sape teman ko time ko paling gembira di sisi orang kau sayang? Memang aku mengungkit. 

Aku: Abis ape yang ko nak ni?

Ko: Sayang diri ko, sayang aku. Jaga diri ko, jaga aku.

P/S: Diri sendiri pun aku selalu tak jaga, apetah lagi ko..Sorry Rocketeer, aku memang tak pandai jaga ko...

His Wedding Speech

p/s: Teary? No? Well am the 'cenggengest' :P

Mr Brightside I don't LOVE you but I TRUST you..

The best part of 'us' is that we are not siblings, not bestfriends, not lovers, in fact, we are not even attached to one another.

Nevertheless, you and me trust one another like siblings, care each other like bestfriends, we hugged one another's heart like lovers, like so unexpectedly whatsoever.

Uniquely, we don't have to be next to each other all the time but most of the time we are always be there for each other.

We are gifted with this shoulder that as and when I need yours likewise when you need mine, that shoulder is yours and mine to be for shoulder to cry on like it should be.

The fact that we are always thankful for having one another, we don't have to always thank each other for having each other..

Hey, YOU..

Mr. Brightside

Who gives your shoulder, at the same time I give mine.

madhat

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p/s: "I trust YOU"

Hati vs Hari

Appetizer! ^_^

Hari padat berhari-hari

Puluhan macam aktiviti

Berteman, ditemani, menemani

Hati diisi, berisi, terisi

Tapi dia bukan kau hajati

Hari jadi sunyi

Aktiviti jadi sepi

Hati jadi tak sudi

Sebab dia bukan kau hajati

Hari jadi kosong jadi mati

madhat 

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p/s: I've just realized that when am 'broken' I tend to......write.. :) 

Anyways, thanks to my dearest adik, Winawin *hugs*

Titibe Teringat je...

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,

I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,

I am in the graceful rush

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,

I am in a quiet room,

I am the birds that sing,

I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there. I do not die."

(Mary Elizabeth Frye, 1932)

p/s: Al-Fatihah to my dear Alif Abu Bakar.

Topeng

Kadang-kadang kita ibarat bertopeng walaupun tak memakai topeng..... Ha ha ha.....

p/s: Warm up...setelah sekian lama menyawangkan blog.. ^_^

Kita berdua DAH Tak Releven Lagi...

p/s: Jangan diharap,tak mungkin dapat, kini ku sudah tak obsesi lagi....

Lepas ke Bukit Lepoh.. LETIH!

Sedikit kelainan tahun ni. I've added hiking into the my 2014 activity list :) I've started with Sg. Pisang, then go for my Kinabalu training, yes am going to hike Mount Kinabalu..wawrghhh... at one quiet hill in Klang, owh, I haven't updated yet la bout these two.. Oops.. Later..

After been persuaded by my running mate, I finally said to her, "Fine, I'll go this time..Been giving too many excuses already.." So, I went to Bukit Lepoh which located in Ulu Langat.. I was having doubt over myself at the beginning tho and I've been thinking what excuses I should give at the very last minute but thinking that I will be hiking Mount Kinabalu soon, I took the challenge. So, I hike and there was some jungle trekking and 'picnic' all in. I couldn't believe myself that I can actually hike man.. like..for real.. Hopefully, this can be a good sign for me to hike Mount Kinabalu. In sya allah.. 

Enjoy my photos ^_^

  

 

 p/s: And when we were hiking down, I told my friend, "Next time, I want to follow you guys hiking again.." :)

She's Gone??

(You tube from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxnGaURm3B8&list=LLuy5Hk1p9ZITK6xgxbJlsxw)

She's Gone - Steel Heart

She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

[Chorus]

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me
For all I've done to you?
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

[Chorus x2]

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.

(Lyrics from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/steelheart/shesgonelady.html )

p/s: I've never heard this song before until a friend sing this song exactly like Steel Heart sang. Woah.. My friend's voice has stolen my heart!! Hahaaahaa...

As I turned 18 on 18th...

Owh, boy.. It has been ages that I've not been updating my blog.. Bad, Mudd.. Bad.. Hahahaaha.. Hey, I just turned... '18' last Saturday ^_^ Hard to believe?? Yes? No? Should be much younger? Hahaha.. Am always young at heart. I'm so grateful that Allah has given me chance to live, breath and fix myself. In sya allah. Thank you so much for all wishes! This year, my birthday is so special as I've been receiving my birthday wishes two days earlier due to FB been prompting my birthday too early and people got confused. Owh, well.. If they wanted to wish the whole month also can do ^_^

Here's my dear Lisa's birthday wishes for me.. Huuu~


Happy Birthday Babe.
As usual, age is just a number. Who cares about it, when we still look 23.
May you have a great year ahead babe. Insyaallah.
You're the closest person i have in my life after my family. I could tell u everything without u judging me. What can i ask more when God grant me the wish to have someone like u. I may not see u as often as i want babe. But i'm always a whatsapp away.. Pls take a good care of urself. Don't let people take advantage of ur kindness. Keep searching for the right one. coz sometimes love happens when u least expect about it. Be with someone whom makes u smile for no apparent reason. Follow ur heart but listen to ur instinct. Alamak, terpanjang pulak.. Hehe. I love you babe. I love u like i love all my Ferrari's collection. Coz sape usik Ferrari i, confirm i rotan. Precious kot. Hehe. Btw, don't ask me why Ferrari. Its just an example. But seriously, don't touch my Ferrrari's...

Happy Birthday Babe.

So, am like her Ferrari's collection, eyh.. Haaaahahaha.. We hardly say mushy-mushy "I love Yous" to each other..But.. lately.. we said it quite often.. I think.. Haihh~

Anyways.. yeah.. happy birthday to Mudd... May Allah gives me the best of me! In sya allah. 
 

p/s: Thank you Allah, Thank you.. 

Excuses!

Check out my schedule...

19 Oct -        BSN Putrajaya Night Run
25-27 Oct -  Company Trip to Langkawi
1-3 Nov -     Akram's Wedding Trip to Kelantan
5-7 Nov -     Company Teambuilding at Janda Baik
9-10 Nov -   Floor Manager for Cousin's Wedding
16-19 Nov - Running my first Penang Bridge Half Marathon & Vaccay!

Either during the weekdays or weekends, I've been and am going to be superbusy, that's why my blog been so quiet for the pass few months.....So...excuse accepted? Yes...? 

Ha haaaa.....

p/s: but seriously, am seriously busy...seriously... :P So, who wants to be my assistant?