This morning I woke up earlier than usual. Besides the sound of my table fan and my sinus sneezes, the morning universe was completely in silent, a very peaceful surrounding. But enough to let me reminisce the memories that happened exactly a year ago...The day that have changed my life... our life - your parents, siblings, family, loved ones, friends and the list goes on. I remember everything from that day, down to the smallest details. The memories of that day will be the final images that float through my mind.........I remember the nights before that day. Its was our sleepless night, we were praying so hard, we were hoping for miracles.....I truly believe that only Allah knows the miracles behind that day. That morning, I was contemplating whether to go to the hospital or to go to work. As much as I had the unexplained bad feelings, but I washed it away by thinking that I must have been overreacting or worrying too much. However, the moment I recieved Yaya's text message, "Abang dah meninggal." That text message - short, shocking, stabbed me in my heart. My worst nightmare :'( I can't feel my legs, I couldn't care less who was around me, watching me, consoling me... I cried like never before............*sigh* Suddenly, am back to reality, back to my room, back to the so called quiet universe......I felt pain in my chest which I realized that I've been holding my tears...I said to my self, NO. Not today, I have promised myself that I will not cry. How 'cenggeng' I am. Just not.. today...Well as long as Alif's parents or Nek Wan or Yaya or Budak Kecik or B....as long as they are not around..... I guess, I should be fine... Insyaallah..
It feels like yesterday, when you called me and broke that great news, "I just want to tell you babe, that am getting engaged next month." Immediately I turned furious,what to do, being me.. "WHATT, you're informing me over the phone?? And, it's next month and only now you're telling me? Nape tak bagitahu bulan February terus!" "See, I told you oso you marah, I didn't tell you oso you marah...." he complained. "So, dengan sape, budak Raja Muda ke? Budak sekysen 2? I kenal dia? Bila you nak bawak I jumpa dia?" Yeah, bertubi-tubi.. :P "No you don't know her, alah, nantilah I bawak dia jumpa you." I can't recall how we ended up our conversation but it was really a great news indeed. And guess what, you really 'bawak' me to meet up your fiancee during your funeral. I'm so sorry for your loss, B. :'( I know I shouldn't have said this but I regret that we used to be in the same office and we used to hang around, and yet I don't even have any single photo taken with you.... But I promised there's always be the best picture of you and me, in my mind... still...I envy them.......
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Budak kecik..
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Faizul
Lyana
Syazrul
But one thing for sure that all of us would have in common.....We miss you... very much.Words.....are never enough to express....how much... we have missed you.. Alif Abu Bakar... :'( Al-Fatihah for you my dear friend...
