Bila Nak Kahwin.....

Terpanggil untuk meluahkan rasa hati yang tak seberapa penting ni. Yelah, selalu disoal-siasat dengan soalan lazim. Korang sure tau punyalah ape soalan lazim tu.

....Bila nak kahwin?....
(haaaaa....siap ada spotlight lagi)

Sigh. Sebagai manusia majazi yang serba kekurangan dan tak mempunyai ilmu tilik untuk mase depan, memang susah nak memberi jawapan...Jawab salah, tak jawab pun kena belasah. So? But I would try to give as optimistic answer as possible. "Belum ada jodoh, kak.." Cheh, optimis kah? I admitted, most of my 'batch,' group of friends, Unimates or officemates, Alhamdulillah, masing-masing dah selamat menempuh alam perkahwinan.Ada yang dah anak dua, anak tiga. Alhamdulillah. "Ha, Mudd bila lagi..." Tetttt... Then, I would reply, "Tak sampai seru lagi," Cuba memberi jawapan yang sederhana, dengan harapan tiada soalan lanjutan.. Meleset.. "Alah, ko memilih sangat, jangan memilih sangatlah zaman sekarang." Wrong, you are so wrong. "Bukan memilih kak, pilihan lelaki untuk dipilih pun tak ada." Dalam hati jawapan 'jahat' ada. Abis kak, takkan nak amik je sesape tepi jalan tu, wei, jom jadi my husband nak tak? Tettt. Sekadar terbenam didalam hatiku. Sigh. Tak ada boifren pun salah? Ada yang memang dah ada boifren pun, bertahun-tahun bercouple, tak kahwin lagi. Pun nak kena persoal jugak. Hai, weh! Biarlah, they can decide when they want to get married, tak payah sebok-sebok la.

To me, Allah has planned something for me. It's not that am totally berserahh je to Allah, without any effort. "Lelaki ni kena cari, Mudd." Seriuosly, I dunnot how to cari. Please. I tried, having all relationship yang kebanyakannya kecundang, tak berjaya, tak menjadi, perlu cuba lagi, etc. Enough. Am not giving up here. But I've reached to one extent, if ada, Alhamdulillah, if tak ada, there must be a reason behind it. Wallahua'lam.

I've observed a few scenario, if you're single lady, people would ask, when are you getting married. Say you're married, then, people would ask, when you will get a child. Fine, say you have a son or daughter. People would still ask you a question, when is your second child coming? See, it's never ending! These 'people', they will never stop asking! I cannot blame these 'people.' Because some of them are very dear to me. But it turned out rather annoying to receive such question several times from the same person. Sigh.

I had a friend who received this common question, "Beb, bila ko nak kawih, haa." Pergh dengah selambanya dia menjawab, "Ko rase, ko tau ke bila ko akan mati?" Tettt, ouch! But, true also, what my friend has answered, bukan ke jodoh & ajal di tangan Allah, kan? Anyways, dah kahwin pun mamat yang menjawab tu, Alhamdulillah.

Kesimpulannya, bila orang tanya lagi "Bila nak kahwin, Mudd?" I should answer as below...

p/s: Believe me, it's not that I don't want to it's just the matter of I don't know when...He knows the BEST..