YES.. NO.. SO.. DROP it!

YES, it keeps on haunting me..
YES, the memories still in my mind..
YES, am not the one
YES, am still fighting...
YES, this song reminds me of him..

NO, it stops here...
NO, i have other beautiful memories...
NO, the one worth for me is out there...
NO, no more fighting, just STOP...
NO, it's just a song..

SO, go and open new chapter ans door...
SO, delete 'those' folders...
SO, open your eyes, heart and mind...
SO, no more excuses after this...
SO, just enjoy the song...

DROP all YESes, stick to NOs and SOs will make you MOVE FORWARD.... :)

This to declare that all 'nightmares' in 2010 stays in 2010......

Welcome brand new 2011 :)

Happy New Year!!



p/s : haha...YES.. it's just a song...you can count on me now...

"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right" - OPRAH, requoted it from Twitter

BABE, be strong...

As per Mrs Pinkjamboo latest entry, her daughter Caca, was admitted to hospital and the doctor has confirmed that my precious Caca has H1N1.... The moment I heard about it, my tears were falling down my face. Haih, if Lisa can tell me calmly, then I should be strong too. As we entered the ward, then I saw Caca so weak. Not my cheeky and active Caca. She cried the moment she saw Mama... Haih, aku ni cenggeng, budak kecik nangis pun aku bley terpengaruh... Tahan..Tahan.... Okay better amik gamba, so that my mind can astray away from the sad feelings.. However, Ocin sempat cerita, when Caca was being examined by the Doctor, she was screaming and crying on top of her lungs. Even Lisa sendiri tak sanggup nak masuk, dia suruh Ocin sorang je masuk. But the funny part was when the moment the Doctor hold her, she screamed "Noooo, no, no, no no.... Oh My GODDD... No, No, no, NO..." Adoi, tengah sayu-sayu tu semua sempat gelak :) Haih, Caca you're my sweet heart lah... Auntie Mudd pray to Allah that you will recover soon and we can go home and play masak-masak, Caca cook, Auntie Mudd eat....We can watch cartoon at 'Playhouse Disney Channel' together... Caca strong... Just like your Mummy & Daddy you know.. :) Love you celots.....

Caca admitted to Hospital Pantai, Cheras...

My sayang, Caca...

Her shoulder to cry..... Mama...

She just.. 2 years old.. Tangan dia kecikk je..

Meet Mummy's & Grandma's , erm Auntie Mudd's too HANDSOME BOY.. RYAN... :) Mama always said to him.."How many heart you're going to break later.." Hahaha...
I love you 'IRONMAN'..... :)

Special note to Lisa...
Babe........I don't want it to sound so mushy.. so..this one is for you.....

TRUST issues

I've been 'constructing' this entry few weeks back, finally...BERHASIL! This topic suddenly came across my head when, my dearest Mrs. Pinkjamboo approached me for bicara hati ke hati :) She google chat with me on things that has been clouding in her mind and heart... As her loyal 'consultant' I must pay attention to my 'client's'....problem... Hmm, could be that I've watched Bones too much that makes me so into one of the character in this series, Dr. Sweets, a brilliant young FBI psychologist who is equally adept at profiling murderers and providing "couples therapy.." *daydreaming* Yup.. I've watched this series too much!

Anyways, this was the issues....

Lisa: Ni ha, Y bile fwens know kite buat photography, we will be da last on their list to hire? I mcm pelik ..Adelah few of my fwens nak tunang n kawin. Even sedara pun mcm tu Haihh...

And... Doctor Mudd replied...
me: sebab babe..1. u're not a photographer by profession to them..u're lack of experience.....derang nak those yg lagi established 2. dey didn't stay wif u.. see u every day.. day in day out.. dey dunno how hardworking both of u..put effort.janji siap on time..
Lisa: x-( Hehe
me: 3. sebab...they are not ME.. ;P normally yg tertarik nak suruh u amik jadi photographer...once.. they have seen u.. hear u talk.. face to face.. baru raseee.. how pure you guys are...
Lisa: B-) Haihhh
me: i mintak tolong korang for Nabil's wedding.. bukan la mainly sbb murah ....but..i trust u..i know....korang buat all out punye...
Lisa: Tu la babe
me: it's the TRUST... dat we need to give them..
Lisa: Sometimes ppl tgk luar jee Mmg la tade degree in photography Tapi I have masters in hardworking..talking.. HahahahaAdeii Org mcm ni buat I nak kerjaaaa sgt kuat Prove to everyone..
That's my girl... I will support you all the way, babe!
me: jgn risau babe.. allah akan sentiasa bersama org yg sabar... and best..u guys rajin.. :) so..insyaallah..

So you see, this trust issues is applicable in many issues, as for my own experienced, why did my mother allowed me to travel alone all over states to my friends' house, after my SPM? I've been to Johor to Muar to Melaka to Kelantan to Terengganu.....and FYI I hadn't return home at all until my last stop, erm...can't quite remember where was my last stop ;p Moreover, I was just a 17 years old girl.... I did asked her that one time, "Kenapa dalam adik-beradik pompuan, Umi lepas Ha pergi rumah kawan-kawan Ha yang jauh-jauh, Umi kasi Ha keje lepas SPM,Kak Nur dulu Abah langsung tak bagi, Ha boleh keluar dengan member-member Ha malam-malam...." She answered it quite simple.."Umi percaya kat awak kot..." The moment she replied, it was not that significant or affected me that much, perasan anak kesayangan le tu..cet..until......I've experienced my own trust issues..... For example in my previous relationship be it with my ex, my best friends and worst...with my own self......I realized how powerful 'trust' can determine your thoughts, feelings and actions.

Too one extent, it might affect your life as well...

I had a nightmare on this serious trust issues, whereby my very good friend had trust issues with her girlfriend back then.. The GF been 'stalking' my friend, tak cukup...ditambah lagi her negative imagination on what was her BF doing, with whom he had his lunch with? who served him,?waiter or waitress,? did the waitress tried to get his hand phone number? and the best part... Was I with him... pfttt.... She even called up his colleague, just to check on him, "Betul ke tengah keje layan customer, ke layan Madihah..." "Main futsal ? sape lagi ada, Madihah mesti ada lah tu!" Whattaa... While he was driving she would insist him to on his 3G, so that she could see who was sitting at the passenger's seat.... Until my good friend was very.. tired... he even asked me whether I've received any threat from his GF... He told me also that he did stopped his car once, out of sudden, after tired being interrogated, and park his car by the roadside and left the GF just like that.. and he went home on foot. Erm, But the 'tragic' part was he had to go back to his car since his house keys was attached to the car keys... Adoi la.. I called her psychopath... Haih.. Gilak ahh, if you don't trust you BF....esok dah kawin macam mane? Erm, tapi dah kawin pun.... Jodoh...

And when you're married, TRUST is the most crucial thing... Wah, cakap macam dah kawen aje... :P I've always imagining and asking myself, what kind of wife would I be later? Sporting? Torturing? Suspicious 24-7? Jealous? I don't know. I hope I'll be the understanding one. Macam mana nak hidup aman if 24 hours been thinking, my husband with who, how is his workstation arrangement, do any of his lady colleague had a crush on him, he said he doesn't have Facebook, is he telling me the truth? Agaknya ramai ke orang tergila-gilakan my husband...Wowowowowo..... Susah sangat, pasangkan je detector attach to the husband's body lagi bagus tanam terus dlm badan.... I think for wives, as much as they tried to think as positive and as optimistic as possible..sometimes, suspicion is the greatest enemy of TRUST....and it needs to be controlled... Jangan berserah and percaya sangat, boleh kena bohong jugak, and vice versa, takkan tiap-tiap jam nak suspect husband buat benda bukan-bukan... Macam tu biar la si suami jadi fulltime house husband, duduk rumah je... Well, easy to say than to do right... but..I've seen a few of examples of loyal husband...... :) That makes me still believe that..... suami yang setia....belum pupus lagi.... :) Ehemm..Ehem... I titibe teringat interesting stories from Perempuan Jomblo. :)

And last but not least..I used to have TRUST issues with my own self... Can I do it? Can I keep the secrets? Am I capable enough to do that task? Am I trustworthy....? Am I? Hmm..Dengan confident I would answer.. YES... I can trust myself.. If other people can trust me so why couldn't I? Which reminds me of this most recent incident.....a friend of mine, we rarely talk, to each other until he got problem with his work related issues, and unintentionally he started to spill the beans.. up to P&C issues, then he said, "Though we've just met, and we're not that close earlier, but I don't know I feel comfortable to tell you my problem and everything.." Wah, gua terharu seh.. Normally a guy won't be highlighting 'those' kind of things, they are more like....'engko-aku..sendiri-sendiri paham la'..

So it's true..a friend once told me..... am everyone's 'doctor'.. :) Wah, macam ni I got to find my 'doctor' too then... :) Actually banyak lagi issue trust lain yang boleh dikaitkan....this trust issues are based on my own experience.. :)

p/s: Zillion thanks to my dear 'night creature' fren, for 'temaning' me and forward me great song! :) Thanks, Beb..

Saya TAK NAK MEREMPIT anymore!

Korang...
Just watch this video....
I don't want to say much...
I just don't want to drive recklessly anymore..
I don't want to 'merempit' anymore...
I don't want...
I don't want...
I love my life..
I love my loved ones...

:(

The Guardian...

I was doing my 'light' online reading on the internet on Human Behavior. I've always wanted to be a Psychologist, I love to read , analyze and observe people, it is fun and become more fun when your analysis is accurate :)) Erm, but I didn't get the opportunity to further my studyies to become one. So I did my own 'study' and 'research'. This page linked me to another interesting website--> http://www.keirsey.com/ and I've accidentally took this personality test..And lo, the scariest part was, the result is effing accurate! Especially those that I bold.... But there are certain points that I didn't quite agree..Wah, this means, I've revealed most of my traits to all of you..... :p Okay, here goes my results...

Custom Keirsey Temperament Report for: Mudd

Your Keirsey Temperament Sorter Results indicates that your personality type is that of the Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply -- and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses. Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly -- they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world. Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap. Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population, and a good thing, because they usually end up doing all the indispensable but thankless jobs everyone else takes for granted. Guardians at Work As a Guardian, you enjoy working as a valued member of a team, whether you are leading it or following a credible leader. You like to work with people who carry their weight. You appreciate having clear-cut responsibilities and being recognized for your dedication and achievements. Your natural traits are those that employers have traditionally valued - and that successful companies still respect. You are responsible and loyal to an organization once you've signed on. In any environment, including your work place, you are usually focused on making people happy and facilitating harmonious relationships. You often lend "aid and comfort" by drawing on a combination of tradition, past experience, and the direction of established authority. In your ideal job, people would give of themselves and work toward the good of the group.

So TRUE!! Except for the last bullet...
http://www.keirsey.com/sorter/user.aspx

p/s: Seriously....why not you guys take the test also.. :)

2010 Flashback...

What happened to me throughout my 2010....

1. I turned 28 in January... :)
   
2. I've 'launched' my blog in March- Dark Mudd ;) During earth hour...
3. My Ryan Iszkandar was born in April...
   
4. Got my heart broken in May .. Erm...
   
5. I've deactivated my Facebook.. For Good..
   
6. June was my 'recovery' month.. Still recovering tho.. And suddenly I became a creative person...
   
7. My CLK (Cute Little Kelisa) was being hit by some 'budget bagus' army at Carwash...
   
8. I've quit my 6 years job in Mesiniaga and join FPSO in July...
9. For the first time in my entire friendship life with Lisa Mrs. Pinkjamboo, I went out with her and watched movie, just the two of us :P
10. I had my most peaceful Ramadhan...... Alhamdulillah...
    
11. I was down with fever on my 1st Syawal.. Cobaan...
12. My beloved brother got married on 3rd day of Aidilfitri...
    
13. I've gotten my full driving license! FINALLY, after 5 years! Thank you Farha :)
    
14. My dearest 'merapu' friend, Acu, decided to move back to Terengganu... Mish you...
15. I went for my group Trip to Kuching in October, that was my first time to Sarawak.. We had planned it for years....
    
16. My beloved Shayna got married :') Tissue please.. *Happy tears*
17. My car was hit, AGAIN, by a construction worker, he said he was watching the constructing building and didn't look in front.... pffftttt.... Betul punya double 'knock'....
18. Finally, I had to 'hang' my futsal shoes. To avoid myself from losing my knee....or worst..my leg.... Pasrah Mode..
19. Alhamdulillah, I managed to accomplish my ultimate 2010 resolution :) :) :) Sadakallahula'zim... After like.......10 years or maybe more!???? Shishh.... yet.. Alhamdulillahhhhhh...

Alhamdulillah.....may my 2011 is much much better than 2010, Insyaallah... Amin... Never, look back.... :)

I Just LOVE... this song...

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart

But it might me a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Gonna come out anyway

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

>>>>The lyrics mean that the protagonist of the song does not love the person as much as she loves him, but is willing to give the relationship a try<<<< (requote from the internet)

p/s: been trying to download this song from the internet.. misi gagal pftt.... NABIL... HELP ME!

Please SLEEP!!!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Insomnia

nak tdo...nak tdo................patut la my immune gone haywire..... :'(
I want to sleep...
I just want to sleep...... :'(
I MUST sleep.....

Happy...?

I went to my former company, Mesiniaga, last Friday. The main reason to go there was to help to deliver 23 bags of vitagen to my ex-colleague. Wah, they do miss me a lot, or maybe they miss the vitagen. :P But I do miss everything in Mesiniaga! huhuhu... It's been 5 months since I left Mesiniaga. Tapi how come rase macam dah bertahun pulak. Ha ha... The first thing they noticed about me, "Hey, nampak kurus la.." Eheh.. YES, berkat saya pakai baju hitam kot.. Sekali orang keempat keenam jumpa pun said the same thing. Rasenye mata korang ni 'kero' kot.... Erm, Thanks for the compliments anyways. :P Tapi one of my ex-colleague gave a different remarks....."Madi, you look very.... happy.." Huhh? :P "Yeah, babe, different then YOU before.....you know, you are no longer..sad......" Owh... that one.... :( *sigh* Tiba-tiba, terimbas segala 'tragedi May.." Urghh...

Seketika lagu Leona Lewis - Happy, berkumandang dalam pale...

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose, you can't have everything
Don't you take chances, you might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain 'cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by
So unhappy, but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground?

I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ya
Just wanna be happy, ya

Holding on tightly, just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role, slowly disappear, oh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names, get me out of here
But I can't stand by your side, oh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So any turns that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim, don't say anything

Wah, siap letak lyrics dia smpai abis! Lama betul berkumandang dalam pale.. kekekeke......"Are you dating anyone now....." Eh.... "Of course la takkkkkkk!" Pantas jawapan dari hati :) Huhuhu.. But, yeah, Alhamdulillah, somehow, am happy..... I think so, Insyaallah.. :) So, it's written all over my face, huh... :) May it jive with my heart and feelings... Hehe..

This is the opposite of the photo that I've put in my earlier entry before... :)
This time around..it's a 'The New Begining'
I've moved on
Insyaallah..
I'VE MOVED ON.......

Kecamuk....

Temporary?

For Good?

I don't know...

Takes time...

It's TIME...

SEE HOW...

Voltaren???

NORGESIC?

MAKES ME SICK!

Beazyme.....

Help ME..

OH, NO..

NO MORE....?

p/s: I just need to wait and see...apepun, I will redha and accept His plan... :) He knows the Best....

O.M.K.. (Oh My Knee....)

Yesterday I played futsal as per my normal Wednesday night schedule. But 'you cannot smell bad luck; , I've collided with one of my team mate, Eli and somehow, I fell hard and hit my left knee to the pitch ground. Dah la terhentak, terseret pulak tu, nyaris terlentang. At first I felt numbness on my knees, pastu rasa panas giler kat lutut tu. But I just ignored and continue playing. However, towards the end of the game, my knee started to swell. Dah tak betul dah jalan, terhencot-hencot, nasib jadi gollie, tak banyak sangat kena lari. So, I sat down at the bench and started to check out the condition of my knee, alamak dah merah la.. Dah berdenyut-denyut dah. Adei.. At home, I immediately apply ice on my knee. Siap my little Tasya, yang tak tido lagi though dah nak pukul 11 malam tu, so shocked to see me limping. "Hah, 'Uncle' Mudd, what happened?" she asked. FYI, lately Tasya selalu confused to call my name since Lisa's brother is called 'Mudd' also. So, I just bear with her la, if she calls me 'uncle'. Haha.. Anyways, I replied that I fell while playing ball. You know what she said, "Mudd, sit, Caca help you," sambil pegang....Yoko Yoko... HAHAHAHAHA... so cute... She applied the Yoko Yoko to BOTH of my legs okay, special treatment dia bagi. :P I love you celots, Caca... Akhirnya, last night, I had to solat duduk.... :( Hmm, baru je past few days borak with Montserrat about his leg injury sebab futsal..

The next morning, bangun-bangun terus carik ais, tuam la barang 2-3 minit, kaki cramp sikit and limping still. Pergerakan pun terbatas. Since pergi kerja naik LRT & Monorel, time tu baru terasa sakitnya kakiku, banyaknye tangga nak didaki... :( I brought along the 'gel based' ice pack to office to tuam my knee. But I still feel discomfort. Farha replied my sms, 'Pergi klinik, Mudd.' Lily bersungguh-sungguh, "Awak, pegi la klinik, pergi la panel kita yang dekat-dekat dengan ofis." Ezreen pulak, 'Babe, you jangan main-main, ingat ape jadi kat Zack.' Titibe dapat gtalk chat dari Zack, 'I heard about your knees..You better go to the clinic asap..' "Kak Ha, pegi klinik la, ade orang teman tak, pegi dengan sapae" my brother Nabil tanye. "Kalau awak makan 'Vitaking' esok pun dah boleh baik, " Of course itu suggestion dari Kak Liza. Acu yang jauh di sinun pun sempat melawak menghiburkan hati. Normy pun bertanye khabar.. Wah, terharunya...Tapi Shayna lagi best, when I told her what happened to my knee sepantas kilat dia jawab, "Madi, cepat terus pergi HOSPITAL." Wah, hospital terusss :) Kekekeke... Tq korang, you guys so thoughtful.

Kebetulan my collegue Halim pun tak sihat, so we went to the clinic together later after lunch hour. We filled up forms and waited our name to be called. The nurse called my name, ladies first kot.. Yang bestnye, doktor tu quite thorough and very detail! Kelakar pun ye....

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: So, what's up?

Mudd Sakit Lutut: I played futsal last night and I fell. I hit my knee quite hard.

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: May I know what was the time when you fell. (Whaa..?)

Mudd Sakit Lutut: (Blur) Aaa, Around 8.15 pm...

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: So you played futsal, and fell, around 8.15 pm.... (mumbling while jotting down in). So, did you continued playing.

Mudd Sakit Lutut: Yes, until the game almost ended because I started to feel pain.

(DDYK still jotting down the info, giler kentang khusyuk)

So he asked me to lay on the bed and check the condition of my knee. He even checked my another knee.

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: So, you're the 'hardcore' futsal player eh? You're quite active, any other sports?

Mudd Sakit Lutut: Where got hardcore, doctor. I always play moderately. Yeah, I love to jog, and if got chance, I will join the marathon, in fact, I just joined last Sunday.

(DDYK angguk-angguk, gayanya paham benor la my favorite sports, hahahaha...)

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: It seems that your ligament and bone bruises sikit la. So , I'm going to give you some medicine, make sure you habiskan, ubat sapu, ubat bengkak... (Mumbling lagi, I couldn't understand dia cakap ape) AND MAKE SURE YOU REST WELL and no futsal for the time being (titibe suara dia kuat, aku nak tergelak laaa at the same time panic.. No Futsal?? Desyum..Desyum...rase macam kena tumbuk)

Mudd Sakit Lutut: (Try to control my panic) Okay... how long I cannot play futsal ye, Doctor?

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: At least 2-4 ....(mumbling lagi! Ape la ko cakap aku tak dengar! but I quickly asked him...)

Mudd Sakit Lutut: 2-4 weeks?

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: NO.....

Mudd Sakit Lutut: 2-4 MONTHS???? (I swear I did screamed to the DDYK...pfft)

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: Aiya, No laaa.. 2-4 days only, but to be safe, make it a week...
Don't jog, just brisk walk for the time being

Mudd Sakit Lutut: (I gave my 8 harkat laugh and he tepuk his dahi sebab I was so panic tadi) Yayy, so I can play my futsal next Wednesday la kan???

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: Erm......can.. but make sure warm up and warm down properly..then you shall be fine..(Tolonglah percaya korang, dia jot down suggestion dia tu on the card...adei la doc..)

Mudd Sakit Lutut: Okay, TQ doctor. (Bersiap sedia bangun untuk keluar)

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: WAIT..(alamak apehal pulak, berubah hati ke) This Halim boy ni your friend?

Mudd Sakit Lutut: Yes, he's my colleague.

Doctor Detail Yang Kelakar: Okay, call him in ya. TQ.. (Chehhhh!)

Adoi laaaa DDYK......You've made my day la doc.. hahahaha...

Apepun..........Oh, My Knee............

p/s: DDYK tu dah macam Daddy Yankee pulak..wakakakkakaa...

MALAKOFF is On...

Yeah, my 'Solo Project' is accomplished! Alhamdulillah.... Kalau tak kuat semangat, memang jadi 'warm-warm chicken shit' je la. I collected my t-shirt a day before the event at Jaya One, PJ and for the first time, I received green colored t-shirt? slalunya putih or hitam.. Maybe support green earth kot... :) Or maybe bukanlah byk kali sangat participate pun. Once in a while je.. :P

I took this photo from my tee :)

Anyways, I left my house at 6.45 am and arrived at the 'scene' 15 minutes later. Selamba je park tepi jalan, mane ntah :P, so I had to walk a lot, to get to Bukit Kiara via Gate A Entrance. Dah considered warm up jugak tu, hehe... So, as usual, lari, lari jugak... Gamba tetap amik.

The road around 6.50 a.m.




This is the route, 7km just run one round, for 14km, they need to run this route twice.
To me, the route memang 'mintak nyawa' la, baru lari tak sampai 1km, dah terus ada bukit! Altogether got 3-4 hills, or maybe more, tak sempat kira dah..

Apepun I still can't believe that I've participated in this event. Haha.. Though I came alone, but I met one sweet girl, her name is Ila :) Before the event yet to start, kitaorang dah pose bergambar macam dah kenal 18 tahun :P Siap tukar-tukar no handphone. Start je lari, kami membuat haluan masing-masing, biaselah I will run follow my pace :)

Hehe, ni wajah-wajah sebelum lari, semangat la bley senyum lagi....

As I mentioned earlier, the route memang mintak nyawa, I feel like quitting half way. But I just shut the negative thoughts and sing in my mind, Just keep runing, Just keep running, Finding Nemo tune.. Apepun my rekod berlari tetap sama macam Putrajaya Night Run, I finished the 7km run exactly 1 hour. My new friend Ila finished within 30 minutes aje! Wuuuu, wa cakap lu....... I thought after running I just wanted to go home, sekali tengah amik goodie bag, Ila called and ajak to 'catch our breath' first. Wah, terharu :P

Ahah, this is the Mintak Nyawa Hill :P Antara suasana 'mendaki'..... Tengok kat gamba ni pun titibe rase mengah. Wakakakaka...

Akhirnyaaaaaa.... Erm tapi rasenye organizer ni hang the banner terbalik laaa..... Hmm..

I forced myself to smile... Penat sampai rase disoriented kejap... Maybe sebab the route banyak bukit, so jadi twice penat dari biase....


Ahah, tu dia, pose '30 minutes only' :)


Actually I got the cert also, tapi dah letak dalam plastic bag, malas nak keluarkan :P

So sambil-sambil tarik nafas, tengok permandangan padang kuda, erm, betul ke my term tu? But me the funny part was, they put all of the goodies, inside a plastic bag...... so meleset la jangkaan awal, bukanlah derang go for green earth kot.. Lepas tu, boleh pulak ade free flow food, menu dia Mee Mamak, Cendol, Roti Jala & Kari..... macam defeat the purpose of running.. hmm.. And taufufa & cut oranges, yang ni not so bad la.. So I just grabbed the oranges & taufufa and tapau mee mamak for 'orang rumah' :) Tapi taufufa pun suap 2 kali je, tak larat nak makan pun. Huhu.. Anyways, I bumped into my colleague's cousin and her husband, mase kat Putrajaya Night Run pun terserempak jugak :) And..ada jugak terserempak dengan runner yang attract our attention.

My colleague's cousin with her husband :)

Santarina, siap ade loceng! Sepanjang dia lari, I feel like Santa Clause is comingg... :) Tapi gambar kabur, my hand was shaking while taking this photo.. :p

Okay, there were a bunch of men wearing sarong and run in it! 14km pulak tu. Fuhh....

I like her tee, according to Ila it seems that in the previous Marathon, there are a group of people wearing this 'Undilah Cap Ayam' t-shirt. But somehow, only one 'terlepas' at this Malakoff Run :P

Finally...it's time to go OFF.. :p

Tapi, tak habis macam tu je. Nak jadi cerita, me and Ila went through the wrong exit gate. We didn't realized that there are two entrance, A & B. We came from A but we went out through B Gate. Dah jalan half-way, baru rase, eh, jauhnya.. So soal siasat sedikit sebanyak, tanye pak guard, mak guard.... FYI, if you refer back to the route map, Gate A and Gate B, is quite far...We felt that we had already run for 10km! Akhirnya berjaya!! Wah, nak balik pun boleh sesat, ye... Rase sebab penat sangat..hehe....

Haa...kat sinila I've parked my car.. Kesian dia dah tinggal sorang-sorang kat situ...
Let's go homeee.......Nasib baik drive kereta auto........

Kenapa Menangis....

Suatu pagi yang tenang sesudah hujan di kala subuh tadi, saya pergi ke ofis berkobar-kobar dengan satu misi - siapkan keje! *semangat* Gedebak-gedebuk buat keje, disulami bergurau senda dengan teman-teman sekerja, tak lah stress sangat. Namun, 'cuaca' tenang jangan sangka tak ade ribut. Tiba-tiba, saya terima satu panggilan yang merubah suasana kerja yang tenang........ I've made a blunder mistake in one of my most crucial work, not yet 'fatal' but still, am doomed! Seketika terngia-ngia kata my good friend, "If you do your work right at the very beginning, you don't have to do double work later" Shoots! Cuba mengawal emosi panik yang sedang membuak-buak, membuat sedikit kajian tentang kesalahan yang dilalukan, dalam masa yang sama menyalahkan diri sendiri kerana tidak berapa tegas dalam mengendalikan keje... Warggh... Kesimpulannye tetap.....You're doomed, Mudd! Terpaksa drag 'orang lain' masuk untuk nego on the issues and made few phone calls. STILL... :'( Kali ni terpaksa tarik 'orang besar' in the loop dengan harapan 'berkongsi' kadaan yang belum pasti dapat diatasai ke tidak.... Only one way to do.... I have to sort of begging... *sigh* via email, but in much appropriate and professional way, more or less, 'cc' la ke semua orang.... Cuba mencari 'seseorang' untuk alternative kedua, dia tak ade kat ofis, call hp pun tak jawab. Left my voice message. Tapi masalah belum di atasi...! WARGGHHH....Thank god, I have the most supportive colleague and Manager who always give their supports. Tapi stressnye Allah je yang tau, air mata bley berderai je anytime, tapi pasal keje je kot, nape pulak la sampai nangis kot? Tengah kemuncak panik tahap ke 8, handphone berbunyi...it was my mom.... "Ye, Umi?" Suara cuba dikawal untuk mengaburi perasaan berkecamuk. "Ha, awak ape cerita? Keje okay...?" Aik, umi ni ade psychic power ke ape??? Guess, it was mother's instinct. Maka, berderailah air mata tak dapat ditahan-tahan lagi.... Bilik file kat hujung office menjadi saksi.....

So, persoalannya, kenapa saya kena menangis? Umi tanye kabar je kot? *sigh*

Out of all people, it was my mom who called me, out of blue! The part that she told me "Ha, kalau Ha ade ape-ape masalah pun, Ha jangan berahsia dengan Umi, sikit sebanyak Umi mesti tolong awak punya! Umi ni mak awak, Ha." Wowowo...Neeeeenooooneeenooo... Tisu! I need tisu! Nasib baik, berjaya signal to Lily. She was quite shocked to see me crying . Haihh..Was I being too emotional? Could be.. But to me, what touched me the most, dah la dia ada masalah sendiri, saya sendiri pun jarang call, jarang jumpa, sekali sekala je melepak bersama, and yet, dia boleh tiba-tiba gave me a call to check on my condition? Rase berdosa je! :( I said to her just now that am sorry if I've ever treated her bad, if I've ever broken her heart... Lately, memang jiwa tak tenteram, maybe I've been keeping too many things inside, and just now it just 'burst' . I can't hold it no more. My mom said we should end our conversation, "Umi rase sampai sini dululah, lain kali kita borak lagi, kalau tak Umi rase, Umi pun join nangis dengan awak, oke?" Cute but I was crying like mad. :( I told her I love her so much. The least I can say to comfort myself at that point of time. And our conversation ended. Hasil dari menangis, short term effect, mata bengkak, Kak Liza pun perasan. Later effect, kepalaku pening! I cannot cry, it will end up migrain. *sigh*

Kesimpulannya, my mom might not be the best or the perfect mother, nobody's perfect pun. True, dia suka beleter non-stop, satu nafas, and hang up on you while you were talking, and you don't even got chance to defend yourself. At times she has different plan that snaps you, titibe nak match-making pulok doh? Whatt??? *sigh*

It doesn't matter...... Umi is the best gift from Allah to me and my siblings.
and I LOVE HER SO MUCH... and that matters the most!

Umi, I love you so much..

Ronan Keating - This I Promise You

Ehm... a friend just introduced me this song...
honestly...never heard of this song before but after listening to it...
LOVE IT.. instantly................

Thank you, Montserrat :)
Introduce more please...



My love, here I stand before you
I am yours now from this moment on
Take my hand, only you can stop me shaking
We'll share forever, this I promise you

[Chorus]
And when I look in your eyes
All of my life is before me
And I'm not running anymore
'Cause I already know I'm home
With every beat of my heart
I'll give you my love completely
My darling, this I promise you

My love, I can feel your heartbeat
As we dance now closer than before
Don't let go, 'cause I could almost cry now
This is forever, I make this vow to you

[Repeat chorus]

Less SUGAR and stay SWEET :)

WARNING!

Dedication to the 'Night Creatures'...

I can't sleep, so I took some extra effort to find some interesting photos for those who are...like me :) Or maybe I'm dedicating it for myself! *sigh*

and guess what, I will flash this sign tomorrow morning at my workstation....